It has been a staycation Holy Week for me. Oh how fast it has arrived and gone. Even if I am only here at home, time goes by just like that. After watching old dvds, I put on a couple of new ones, never mind what they are. Let your mind wander to what is legal and permissible. More sleep, reading, meditation and yoga.
Easter lunch is with my daughter and mom. I have not managed to get photos, my cellphone battery is low. Bummer. But by dinner time at home, this is what I prepared.
I have this humongous square grill pan that I have never used. Last night I just put it on the stove, turn on the gas and lay the whole dinner menu. I have a small pork chop that I have been marinating on soy-lemon juice-cracked pepper, sliced onions and tomatoes and several shrimps. A dash of olive oil on them and watched them have that nice grill marks we all see on the tv. Got to have those grill marks.
Coffee afterwards and a 30-minute meditation before reading. Sleep comes much later. That has been a rather heavy dinner for me, I really should have made it for lunch, to have time to digest properly. Note to self, next time.
I am truly blessed and grateful, for another year. I don’t want to get all mushy about what this season means to me. It will reveal itself in the next posts. Happy sigh.
I thought of big things that would happen in my life next, after the last two posts and a few weeks had past. But I had been sleeping my time away. At first, I wanted to kick myself for doing that, then I thought thank God I could sleep.
Last September and through November, I could barely get a couple of hours of sleep. I was wide awake suffering in an anxiety disorder that really held up my life. I tried every night to get at least a solid four hours but all through those months, it was very hard. I would take a tablespoon of Benadryl syrup as suggested by some one, just to get a shut eye. I would usually wake up after an hour or two, and never get to sleep again.
I knew it was bad, as it would raise my blood pressure. No sleep and no appetite is a deadly combination in my experience. I ran on pure adrenaline and the more its produced the worse I get. I was afraid for my health at that time and I was so stressed.
Then something happened, after I prayed and prayed and prayed. Around December, I could just fall asleep after I lay my head on the pillow. I would get 6 to 8 hours of sleep, sometimes even longer. The pattern of sleeping less came back in January, but it didn’t bother me anymore. Around March till today, I got good sleep and we all know the benefits of sleeping enough hours.
With that concern taken cared of, I can move on to the rest and be better.