I observed myself for the whole time since I last posted and now confident enough to say this. Yes, my anxiety feeling is gone. I haven’t had any panic attacks or spinning moments since early December. Life concerns are still the same and been doing the daily grind but its been emotionally manageable. In fact, truth be told, I am happy.
I haven’t turned to food in a bad way. No emotional eating except a day when I craved for ice cream, but that was PMS. I don’t smoke and I don’t drink alcohol on a regular basis. I have a bottle of vodka and tequila for making cocktails but I haven’t fixed myself a drink yet. The only movie I saw this month is Underworld, The Awakening. That movie got stale for me. So what gives?
I ( and most likely you) know what to do but I haven’t done it until lately. Totally let go of what was making me tied up in knots. Let go and let God is a sentence we all have heard before. Its what cliches are made of. But, its true. When we get to the core of what and who we are, we know. So, I detached. I accepted, I don’t have control of things and I just let it go the way it wants to go. Today, it doesn’t have to be the way I wanted to, it is just is.
I have emptied my cup. I am filling it up anew. New friendships, new relationships, new things to do, or just a different way of doing the same thing.
Next, feel the power. Feel the power…..of LOVE. See? another cliche. But, still true.
I am truly loved. (Check that out in Google. It is a whole website full of enlightening articles).
My affection is received too. (The giving is welcomed, I mean). Who? By all of you. Isn’t that wonderful?
I have been moving around with a purpose, that takes out the hopeless feeling and believing that being proactive about life concerns removes the anxious emotions. Its called EMPOWERMENT. Being above thought rather than below. Fight things with all you’ve got. Be victorious.
I was stirring a pot of stew, intent on getting the right taste and texture for the sauce, when in my mind I realized that a way to deal with anxiety is to take charge and master the needed skill to topple over the defeating emotions of anxiety that is based on not being able to do or handle the situation. Sometimes we really have to deal with it, but with tools and skills to achieve results.
I still got a ton of things to fix in life. They didn’t disappear or got solved already. Far from it. But here is another cliche that works, its how I react to them that matters. Its my CHOICE.