People gathered on Valentines Day to support One Billion Rising, an event to bring awareness and stop all kinds of violence against women and assert their rights.
I fully support this cause.
I was once abused in a domestic setup. I knew what verbal, mental, emotional and physical harrassment and hurt on a daily basis for more than two years. Escape was a long time coming, but I got away. There was a cost for freedom and I paid for it dearly.
Now I am living a blissful life.
Imagine, last year I was experiencing panic attacks and spinning in the middle of the street, feeling all clammy and shaky. Now, I am ready to take on the world and things have been on the upswing. Amazing.
2012 has been one curly roller coaster ride. I hope to untangle memories and share with you some wonderful lessons I have learned… the hard way, mate. Hmmm.
The year is not over yet .
…and the light switch gets turned on.
In the past few months, I have managed to do further clean-up, in my mind, my environment and in my relationships. My wellness regimen is on the upswing and I practice no attachment . Let go, let flow.
I write to give a heads up to the process. Last year I have battled anxiety and awareness helped in bringing it to the light.
Now I focus on the present moment and concentrate on work, more exercise, quiet time and meditation. SELF-CARE in all caps.
It has been raining a lot and I am in coffee shops more times than I want to, but I am blessed. I am here, when others are so affected by the rains and have to flee their flooded homes. I am grateful.
I look out the window and see a beautiful city. Its new, modern, dynamic and I am a part of it.
My new life has truly begun.
I enjoyed sleeping this week. That is odd, for me. When I had anxiety episodes last year, it was very hard to sleep, I could only manage about 2 hours of shut eye and I would be awake the whole day. Now a full 8 hours plus an extra one makes me feel well rested.
I spent Saturday night chilling, watching dvd or reading and snoozing in between, whatever.
I woke up and got online. My internet provider sucks, as most in the Philippines does. There is no good internet signal. I have to be here very early in the morning to get a post in and do some surfing. Hmmph.
In a few minutes I will sleep some more until its time for an early breakfast around 7am. Life is good.
Wonton Noodle Soup
Breakfast in a Sunday Farmers’ Market
I will get the Sunday paper, probably go to the farmers’ market and have a good noodle soup with siomai. Wonderful. It’s really free falling today with a couple of chores like giving my kitchen top a good clean up and bathroom scrub. Typical condo cleaning.\
Later I will read about yoga and do some poses. A nap after sounds decadent, but I may go for it, too. See?
I choose to do all of these instead of worrying about work, or getting upset about an absentee father coming back into my family’s life and intruding into our senses. I will take things one day at a time and be detached to desired outcomes.
Today is being in the present, on a Sunday. 🙂